It’s been close to 18 years since I first set eyes on you.
It was a lunch on the deck of my best friends house. She’s gone now, in her early 20’s she was taken from us. You, however, are still around. A constant reminder of who brought us together. I thank her everyday now!
There was a moment when you walked onto the deck and my breath caught in my chest. Since then it always has. In still does. Everyday in fact!
You were young, I was, very young, but at that moment I knew there was something about you. Maybe even something about us. Who would have thought our time was now. Finally out mutual friends say!
You were serving overseas so were in and out of Australia. Although you never knew you were always in the back of my mind, always!
Now so many years on and a few brief interludes in the moments where my life was low, very low, you were there, now wake to each other more often than not. Seeing your eyes and your smile as well as feeling your arms around me is what I wake to! Boy I am lucky!
It was never the right time for us. To much going on, to much mistrust, to much time away from one another and really to much hurt. Now look where we are……
It’s tomorrow, the getaway. The one we have planned for over 12 months. Over a year ago, actually it would be June 2018 you came back into my life and we haven’t looked back. It’s been enjoyable, fun, sad at times and even hard. However, here we are.
I remember you turning to me in December 2018 and you said; why did we cross paths again? What now? Why now?
Well here we are….. about to embark on the first 3 week escape for you and I. Your first holiday in 7 years and my first one away without students or child.
To be honest I can’t wait! I look at you everyday and am amazed at how wonderful you are. Rough around the edges yes, but to me in the quiet of the bedroom and with the door closed you really are the most kind and heartfelt man I have ever know. Yes we may wrestle and you may lose. Not as often as I may brag about, but I love how you can be you and I can be me. Truly!
It’s freedom at its best and I cannot wait for the adventure we are about to embark on!
Let’s hope we are talking to each other still in three weeks!
Thank you for being you and for allowing me to be me❤️
Bring on the next chapter of this amazing, sad, happy, amazing and fulfilled book I am writing of my life!