Closing the gate for the last time! To new beginnings !

It’s funny you know, if someone asked me a year ago where do you see yourself in 5 years I would have said the following;

My daughter would have graduated high school at the age of eighteen. She will be starting her own adventure whatever that may be.

I would be spending time with my husband focusing on the house we renovated and spent a year deciding on plans for.

I would be celebrating my sons 22nd birthday and his ascent on the army as he learnt life skills, independence and made good friends.

I would be running along the beach with the dogs, no longer puppies but mature dogs. Making memories.

I would be in my 15th year at my job celebrating the chance to take some leave to focus on family and what’s most important.

Who would have thought that’s what I would have said a year ago. It feels like yesterday.

Today however it looks somewhat different!

My daughter has 4 years until she graduates and moves onto her own adventure.

The dogs are gone and I miss their little faces dearly.

I don’t walk along the beach as I am now alone and without their company.

The house is up for sale and the dream of renovations has faded into the black hole or the abysss that has been created.

I am loading the car with boxes and pieces of my life.

I no longer have a husband to share the moments with as he has moved on.

The future is not what we think it is. The five year plan, the ten year plan. While they are important I now believe in focusing on what’s the ‘NOW’. What’s happening today, right at this moment that’s important? That’s what matters most.

Life is like a baseball game. Who knows what ball will be thrown next. Who knows if you will be caught out and thrown onto a new path, a new role. Who knows if you will get another chance?

We don’t, none of us do!

Who knows what life has in stall for us. Good or bad, hurtful or happy, rewarding or not it’s how we bounce back that makes all the difference.

A student said to me the other day, at the right moment when my mind was reeling with everything that’s going on, “Miss, what do you do when life hands you a bag of lemons, you make lemonade!” From the heart of babes.

I smiled and said you know what, hoe right you are.

It’s making lemonade and truly making the best with what you have right now, at this moment, today, more than ever!

Author: insightintowhatitsrealkylike

Right now I do not even know how to describe me. I am a weak but I am strong, I have hit rock bottom and recovered. Some days I soar, others I hide. Writing comes at the most different of time!

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